Take me down.

I need this to keep me alive.

Fighting with the shadows in my head.
And now I wanna free fall outta nothin'.

 

The fact

If I told you how I'm feeling now, would you judge me? I wanna break that awkwardness. Fuck, why am I like that... and even though I know I shouldn’t still be missing/loving you, I still do. There are just some people in this world who will get us for reasons we can’t explain, even when they shouldn’t. They say saying nothing lessen the tendency of getting hurt. I listened, but why is it that even saying nothing at all hurts like a bitch. I may be quiet at times but I have so much fuckin' thoughts in my mind. I don't know why I'm the way I am right now.

I don't have the courage to face reality so I got lost in my dreams. Sometimes I wished I could live in my dreams forever. I don't mind getting lost in it. At least it's not as painful as it is in reality. At least we're not strangers in my dreams.

Just because I seem strong most of the time doesn’t mean that there aren’t times I am breaking down inside. You don't know how much I want this to end.

Hold On Pain Ends.

Valentines Day.

             HAPPY VALENTINES DAY !

Sooo... what exactly is valentines day? hmmmm....

To me, it's just celebrating friendships and showing your friends and family how much you love them.

To me, it's writing cards and giving chocolates to your friends to show my sincerity.
To me, it's just another ordinary day actually.

No lover, #forever alone? nay, I've got lovely people around me.

Happy Birthday Ms Tan! I think she's the best CT. For real. She stands up for us always, even when she's not our CT anymore. She protects us. She cares for us. She treats us like her children. How to find such a CT? :)

Class guys. THEY ARE ALL SO SWEEETTT!!!
They bought balloons and surprised us. hehehehehehee.

 coolllll guyssss from 11a07.

Class girls xx loveeee each and everyone.

This is my class. 11a07 ^-^

Training after sch, pretty competitve with the j1s around. Doubles with weixian. We won but it was a stressful match afterall... The j1s are good man!

Met Yanching in the evening. I miss that girl so so so so so so so much ;)
Felt like I went back to the past when I talk to her.
Dinnered, chilled around, walk around tpy and daddy sent me home.

Happy Valentines Day to you, I hate to admit it but I miss you so.

26.

This house brings back uncountable memories.
I love this house a lot, really... it's on the top of the slope & it's so windy always.
I grew up in this house.

All of us stayed there, it was a lively place with all the families living together. The home with joy, laughter and happy moments. I remember how we used to play catching in the garden, pick snails up, play sparkles, play ball games, batminton, soccer, freeze and melt, AEIOU and compete who can run the fastest. I remember how we were so afraid of Prince. I remember how excited we were when Ahma comes home with Mentos sweets. I remember how we children fought over minor stuffs. I remember how noisy the house was everyday. I remember going to the maid's room and disturb them. I remember how we used to go the garden very very late at night, holding hands together, standing in a straight line and shouting " WE ARE BRAVE" because it's so dark and scary especially the backyard. I remember getting punished by our parents and locked up in the piano room (and uncle johnny will keep scaring us saying that there's ghost). I remember how the driver will pick us up every morning and we'll all go school together. I remember how we used to dine together and pretend to be barbers at home cutting each other's hair. Those were the days.

Then, ahma passed away and everyone started moving out. So only 2 family continued staying there and we go back very frequently. So during my free time, I'll walk over there to play with my cousins and see Rex ( bcse it's about 10mins walk away from my house ). Every new year, we'll all go back to the house to play and dine together. & it felt exactly how it was back then.

Now, it's gonna be demolished because grandpa decided to divide the house into three and rebuilt for us. It's a good thing because it worth more this way. But it'll be different........ it won't be a mansion anymore. It won't be what it is like before. I miss the feeling of everyone living under the same roof.

20 years old....

So yesterday, I went back to help dad pick up some stones to put at our house garden.
I walked around the whole house and it's so empty.
It felt so weird especially when my voice echoed back......

We'll miss you, 26.

Yes. I'm sad and I bear to see it getting crushed by cranes, exacavators and bulldozers. Good old days. But it's for the better anyway. No more 26, it'll be 26A, 26B, 26C. And all of us will still be living within such close proximity :) 


Memories as such, they are happy and sad, they will be etched in our minds and we will never forget.

Sudden realisation

I think I just suck as a friend but no one is direct enough to tell me. Sometimes I wanna know how I'm like in other's eyes. Feeling so fuckin' down. No one said anything, I just felt so. & times like this, I feel that I'm better off alone.

Strangers again.

Boundaries are necessary so that you can protect yourself, because once you’re broken, you’ll never be fully fixed.

 A night at town with Huiting, a nice person to talk to :)

Chilling @ starbuckzxc. my usual hangout place to do work and chilll ( even the people working there recognise me now )

Guess what?
I can't remember that smell anymore, that proves something. Is it a blessing? I don't know.

The weekends.

It was a great weekend! :)

Fri - Town with Becky, caught a movie & it ended around 11+? so we chilled around scape, had dessert and went home.....
Sat - Town with Yh till late night, caught a movie, chilled at some random bar and home.
Sun - Woke up so frigging late, did my homework and off to bugis to meet Reb.


THIS IS MY LOVELY CRAZY  RETARDEDDD GOOD FRIEND, I CAN NEVER FIND SOMEONE LIKE HER. ;)

hahahahah retarded things we do.

ALRIGHTY, SAYONARAA~~~

Back to school tomorrow, think postively lyn :)))))